Forgive.

It is time to finally forgive myself. I have carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. I have kept my wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. I'll keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, I know what I'm talking about.

To My Confused Friend

A friend of mine asked me what I think about his current situation. His girlfriend dumped him for another guy and he's trying to move on with his life. He's currently trying to woo someone when all of a sudden his ex-girlfriend called him up and asked him if they could mend their previous relationship . He's confused. I dunno what's the real deal between him and his current 'almost friend' and his ex-girlfriend. I'm not even sure why he asked me such question. Maybe an affirmative action for a lame excuse to dump someone or simply the truth.

I am an expert wannabe so I said, "As a friend I’d ask you, do you still love her? Kse if you do, what are the chances are you willing to take? Have you forgiven her and willing ka bang tanggapin siya ulit? K’se if you did forgive her, you should be sure to yourself that you won’t be throwing what she did to you on her face. New life." Naks!

Well, he's confused. What can I say? He's confused. Period. I can't blame him.

With his current situation, it made me rethink with what I had with my old boyfie whom I had the longest relationship I ever had. An on/off relationship, he was my first boyfriend, he became my last, he WAS the love of my life and he was my childhood sweetheart. A big part of my past maybe that's why I had a hard time to let him go THEN. Let's see...

He was my first boyfriend when we were in HS for about a year but we have to break it off simply because we're too young.

Went to college, I met other good looking and wonderful guys whom I had relationships with.

Then we meet again. He's financially stable and managing their family-owned business/company while I was busy earning my second degree. We became an item again.

He's a guy you want to spend your time with. He's good looking, full of surprises, mysterious, intellectually stimulating, exciting and full of fun. So what is it that made me end it with him? We grew up separately within our relationship. Couldn't find common ground for both of us anymore.

Since I became a Christian when I was in HS I have grown so much spiritually while he, on the other hand, is not a Christian and cannot comprehend what it really is to become one.

So that's it. The end of story. He's happy now and I am happy where I am.

As for my confused friend, I hope you consider the following common bad dating beliefs before you decide to date again:

* You choose potential partners who are incapable of meeting your emotional needs.
* You think love has to be difficult, painful, and/or hard.
* You think your potential partner is going to fix whatever you don't like about yourself or your life.
* You believe time is running out on your search for love and/or your chance to have children.

Godspeed to you amigo!

Source

Dad, can I ask you something?

Ideas have been pouring out. But what and how to write it seems to be juggling in my mind because I want to keep it interesting as I share something about myself.

As usual, it's now six in the morning and I couldn't find my spot in my tiny bed even just to drowse off. Guess what? I am surfing the net. Hahaha...

Well, going to my favorite sites to watch TV shows can be boring. Yeah, for four hours. Marathon of Will and Grace, some Ally Mcbeal and Kyle XY episodes and that leaves me nothing but to write. I've been wanting to write about resiliency not just to cause traffic but because I have to. Anyways, I ended up not writing about it because I happen to stumble again on Interview with God. Have you seen it? You better do.

When I first saw this, it made me cry. Hehehe...what can I do? I was on the verge of giving up during that time. Really, it is beautiful. Hey, what if...you can ask Him (Daddy God) anything, what would it be?

I am thinking.

Dad, do animals have souls? Can they enter Your Kingdom? What did Your Son look like when He was still on earth? Where'd Peter go? What did Adam and Eve look like? What the earth looked like before Noah's time? Is there anyone else besides us in this vast universe? I have so many questions to ask you Dad...but I still have to wait for You to take me...sigh...when would that be? I can't wait. :)