## Saturday, November 7, 2009

### Forgive.

It is time to finally forgive myself. I have carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. I have kept my wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. I'll keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, I know what I'm talking about.

## Thursday, July 16, 2009

### I Failed to Remember

June 10, 2008 was my first post on this blog and that makes...

MY BLOG'S 1ST BIRTHDAY! Happy Birthday Payaso!!!

My last post was the day after my blog's birthday. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk!

Getting old.

Affirmative.

Today is my birthday.

Care to greet me?

## Thursday, June 11, 2009

### Navel and Tongue Rings

Plano ko bumili nito at saka nito. K'se dati may navel and tongue piercings ako, eh kaso nagsara na dahil tinanggal ko na kaya clip-ons nalang muna siguro (nyahaha...napapaesep kse ako kung pabubutasan ko ba ulit). Yung tongue ring ko kse dati ay solid titanium medical na de-ikot yung pakaw. Ang tanda ko, lunch time namin no'n tapos may nakagat akong matigas tapos nilunok ko. Tapos maya-maya natanggal sa dila ko yung hikaw at narealize ko na pakaw pala yung nalunok ko. Eh wala akong pambili ng hikaw ulit k'se mahal pa no'n kaya toothpick nalang nilagay ko. Natatanggal at saka masakit edi tinanggal ko nalang. Ayun, di ko na nalagyan ng hikaw. Yung sa belly button ko naman kse ang tagal gumaling. K'se nung college nakaskirt ang girls, natatamaan kaya ang sakit. Tinanggal ko muna yung navel ring ko tapos nawala. Pinalitan ko nalang ng earring, eh ang sakit. Tinanggal ko nalang. Ayun, ang naiwan lang eh peklat. Henako. Kelloidal pa naman ang aking malasutlang skin. Hahaha...

Gusto ko bumili k'se pupunta ako ng beach. Two piece swimsuit ang balak kong suutin. Ang taray diba? Aba, isang buwan na akong nagtotone ng maskels ko sa tiyan at braso no. Dapat na sigurong ibalandara ang seksing katawan. Nyahaha! Excited na si payaso! Weeeee...

## Wednesday, June 3, 2009

### From Your Bottom To My Face

On Sunday night during the 18th Annual MTV Movie Awards, when Sacha Baron Cohen's alter-ego Bruno descended from the rafters and landed fanny-first on Eminem's head, most folks figured that the rapper's rage was the real deal. Suckers! Not only was Eminem in on the joke, he and Baron Cohen rehearsed it to make sure it would all go according to plan.

You can check out Yahoo! Buzz Log and Chicago Tribune for stories about the fake stunt

Anyways, I can't stop laughing even if I've seen this trailer for the hundredth time.

### Undoubtedly K.O.B.

In becoming forcibly and essentially aware of my mortality, and of what I wished and wanted for my life, however short it might be, priorities and omissions became strongly etched in a merciless light, and what I most regretted were my silences.
Of what had I ever been afraid? To question or to speak as I believed could have meant pain, or death. But we all hurt in so many different ways, all the time, and pain will either change or end. Death, on the other hand, is the final silence. And that might be coming quickly, now, without regard for whether I had ever spoken what needed to be said, or had only betrayed myself into small silences, while I planned someday to speak, or waited for someone else's words.
And I began to recognize a source of power within myself that comes from the knowledge that while it is most desirable not to be afraid, learning to put fear into perspective gave me great strength.

## Wednesday, May 27, 2009

### Copied and Pasted Lists of Toxicity

Although we like to think that the people in our lives are well-adjusted, happy, healthy minded individuals, we sometimes realize that it just isn't so. Personally, I've had moments where I'll be skipping through my day, happy as can be, thinking life is grand and BAM, I'll be blindsided by someone who manages to knock the happy wind out of my sails. Sometimes it is easy to write it off and other times, not so much.
Maybe you are a positive person, but when you are around a certain individual, you feel negative. Or, maybe you have an idealistic view of the world and when you are with certain people, you are made to feel silly, unrealistic or delusional. Or, maybe you pride yourself in being completely independent and in control of your life, but when you are around a certain family member, you regress into a state of childhood.
Some of these situations, and yes, these people, can have a tremendously negative impact on our lives. And, although we are all human and have our 'issues,' some 'issues' are quite frankly, toxic. They are toxic to our happiness. They are toxic to our mental outlook. They are toxic to our self-esteem. And they are toxic to our lives. They can suck the life out of us and even shorten our lifespan.

Here are the worst of the toxic personalities out there and how to spot them:
1. Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.
• Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.
2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."
• Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.
3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.
• Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.
4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.
• Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.
5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.
• Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.
6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.
• Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.
7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.
• Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.
8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.
• Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.
All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.
Frankly, life is too short to spend your time dealing with toxicity. If you can, avoid spending mucho time with people who are indicative of these behaviors and you'll feel a lot happier. Have you encountered these personalities? What have you done? Any personalities you would add?

Okay, fine. You have to forgive me for just copying this WHOLE article. I concur to everything she have said and I don't have anything to add up. It's like, 'yeah, I have those people in my life.' Darn. Picture my life. Wahahaha! But no worries, I can make it through the day and be recharged the next day. Am I blessed or what? A huge difference to have Someone bigger than yourself, My God. :D

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## Sunday, May 24, 2009

### Pagninilay

Si Mr. Nognog and obchoinkchoink. The tall and the petite. The man who works in the middle east and a housewife in pinas. A happy couple. Just got married in a christian garden wedding. so happy for them.

Kung gusto n'yo pang kiligin at mapangiti, punta lang kayo sa blog ng ardeytology.

## Friday, May 22, 2009

### Honey Bee

I am enjoying listening to her music and I'm pretty sure you'll love her too. Enjoy!

Zee Avi performs Honey Bee, Bitter Heart, Kantoi, and Monte from her self titled debut album on Brushfire Records.

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Filipinos and Malaysians don't differ in looks that much, eh? Well, do you still remember your history? Malay, Indo at Aeta ang mga ninuno natin. Tanda mo na? Hehehe...Wink!

## Monday, May 18, 2009

### Langyaw

To anyone contemplating a similar leap of faith, he has this to say:

-Estan Cabigas

It's Langyaw's anniversary! Kudos sa iyo kabayan!

### Where's My Pump?

I'm on the verge of giving up.

Have to go back to the place of 'remembrance.'

Remember that...

You are blessed to be a blessing.
You have been through so much and this one is just one of those things.
If every part of your bone wants to quit, the more you shouldn't quit.
This too shall pass.
For what its worth, it's never too late.

From a naive, despondent soul wearing a smiling face. It's me, Payaso talking.

## Friday, May 15, 2009

I gave myself a haircut. Literally. I am not an expert in cutting hairs, but I do know how. Photographic memory serves me well when I first tried to cut my hair. Just put some clip here and there, cut here and there. Voila! I have my new layered hairstyle. When my mom saw that I can cut hair, she even asked me to cut her hair and paid me. Hahaha! Not just my mom, but my brother's as well. I'm getting better and better. Did I mention I do it with my ShihTzu's fur too? Wahaha!

As I have read in eHow.com, cutting your hair at home can save money and allow you to experiment with daring new looks.

Step 1

Start with freshly washed, damp hair. If your hair is dry, spritz with water until damp. Comb out.

Step 2

Start with a plan. What do you want to do--cut off two inches or drastically change your whole look?

Step 3

Pull a small section of hair straight in your hand. Place your fingers where you would like to cut. Only cut about a half inch at a time.

Step 4

After each snip, stop and re-examine progress. Let hair fall straight. Is it even?

Step 5

Cut one side and then the other, rather than alternating--that often leads to cutting off more than desired. Instead, cut one side to desired length, and then match on other side.

Step 6

To cut layers, cut sections of hair to different lengths, making each cut on a sharp angle.

Step 7

Try to pull as much hair to the front to cut, but if you must cut the back, go slowly, use two mirrors (facing each other) and examine progress after each cut.

Tips & Warnings

* Relax! It's just hair. No matter what you do, it can be fixed in some way. If not, it will grow back!
* Go slowly and do not be nervous. Anxiety will increase your chance of making a mistake.
* If you find yourself continuing to try to even out sides, STOP! You will soon cut off more hair than you desired. Stop, take a deep breath, and reassess. Your hair does not have to be EXACTLY even.

Source

### BFF

I miss watching Tagalog Movies. :(

### I Love You, Man

Just seen I Love You, Man starring Paul Rudd and Jason Segel. A boy-man comedy genre that is more than likeable. It was even commented by Peter Travers of RollingStone as hugely enjoyable. It didn't make me laugh out loud but I find it funny though. It's Rated-R so there are some jokes and pervasive language that I can't dig or...let's just say I'm bleepin' it on my mind. LOL for me. Well, I'm not that much unto dirty jokes. Anyways, there's a part when Sydney Fife (Segel) yelled or howled back to a man who tries to tell him to scoop his dog's poop. Peter Klaven (Rudd) was even taught to yell like an animal and honor the process then rewarded with a corndog. Wahaha! LMAO.

But what I find interesting is the soundtrack. Nice list of songs, eh? A very big thanks to YouTube for this decent song from Latch Key Kid, Good times.

By the way, I do get the joke that most Italians are fag. Thomas Lennon even looked like Bruno! Hahaha!

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Did You know?

Latchkey kid or latchkey child refers to a child who returns from school to an empty home because his or her parents are away at work, or a child who is often left at home with little or no parental supervision.

## Thursday, May 14, 2009

### Happily Melancholic

I am predominantly melancholic and I'm a work in progress. I may think or wallow too much, but hey, that's me. Meet me in person, you'll gonna love me. Wink!

I've tried this test just for fun from Jehiah that gave me results of:
43% Melancholy, 30% Phlegmatic, 20% Choleric and 8% Sanguine. As much as i wanted to be sanguine, I can't. Me sad. :(

Okay, I have to brush away those negative thoughts so I'll just focus on my strengths. Here it goes...

Strengths of a Melancholy
The Introvert | The Thinker | The Pessimist

The Melancholy's Emotions

* Deep and thoughtful
* Analytical
* Serious and purposeful
* Genius prone
* Talented and creative
* Artistic or musical
* Philosophical and poetic
* Appreciative of beauty
* Sensitive to others
* Self-sacrificing
* Conscientious
* Idealistic

The Melancholy As A Parent

* Sets high standards
* Wants everything done right
* Keeps home in good order
* Picks up after children
* Sacrifices own will for others
* Encourages scholarship and talent

The Melancholy At Work

* Schedule oriented
* Perfectionist, high standards
* Detail conscious
* Persistent and thorough
* Orderly and organized
* Neat and tidy
* Economical
* Sees the problems
* Finds creative solutions
* Needs to finish what he starts
* Likes charts, graphs, figures, lists

The Melancholy As a Friend

* Makes friends cautiously
* Content to stay in background
* Avoids causing attention
* Faithful and devoted
* Will listen to complaints
* Can solve other people's problems
* Deep concern for other people
* Moved to tears with compassion
* Seeks ideal mate---->that's what I'm talkin' about. Hahaha!

You can try this free Personality/Temperament Test on OneIShy.com
Have fun guys! :)

## Wednesday, May 13, 2009

### Drifting Away

I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost. No bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy, I guess. I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistakes been made and I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing better now. The work helps me. Most of all, you help me. You came into my dream last night with that smile of yours that always held me like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could. I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things. I'm sorry I didn't take better care of you so that you never spent one minute being cold or scared or sick. I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn't apologize more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more compliments on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away...

A friend of mine sent this to me a long time ago. I know where he'd get this(from Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks). But still...

Aaawwww...

Did you know?

The oldest message in a bottle spent 92 years 229 days at sea. A bottom drift bottle, numbered 423B, was released at 60º 50'N 00º 38'W on 25 April 1914 and recovered by fisherman, Mark Anderson of Bixter, Shetland, UK, at 60º 50'N 00º 37'W on December 10, 2006.

Source

### For What It's Worth

For what it's worth, it is never too late, or in my case, too early to be whenever you wanna be. There's no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. You can make the best or worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that'll startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, i hope you have the strength to start all over again. -Benjamin Button (His letter to his daughter, Caroline)

Sure thing Mr. Button. Wink! Wink!

## Sunday, May 3, 2009

### Real beauty

"It has nothing to do with makeup. A really beautiful woman takes good care of herself, of her body, and radiates a strong, happy heart." -Pati Dubroff

Amen.

For more you can go to Oprah.com

### My Dog's IQ

My 7-year-old ShihTzu's IQ scored 17. Not bad for an oldie, huh? Well we adopted him early this year because his owner can't take care of him owner because they're leaving the country. They were planning to put him to sleep since no one wants to adopt an old dog. Poor doggy, so we decided to take him in. Since then, he's my closest companion from being my nap buddy to my exercise buddy to my fun buddy. He's very playful, smart and cute. You'll love him.

Here's how to test your dog's IQ for fun:

In the first test, the dogs had to tip over a can to uncover the treat underneath. The second test required them to free themselves from a towel tossed gently over their heads. In the third test, they had to retrieve a treat from under a very low table. The last test required them to discern their names from other everyday words.

The tests proved to be fun for dogs and people alike, while the results, at least in one case, were surprising. How did the participants score? Click the video link below to watch the test and learn the results. Then take the test at home with your dog. It’s an enjoyable way to learn more about how your best friend thinks.

Have fun!

### Au De Natural

Matthew likes his own scent so much he NEVER wears deodorant or cologne. Apparently, the only leading lady to ever complain was Kate Hudson, who would bring salt rock (natural deodorant) to the set of "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" and beg him to wear it. Matthew would refuse, saying he liked to smell like himself. He claims he showers a few times daily, which shocked us, since we've always thought he looked like he could use a good scrubbin'.

Hahaha! Surfers...

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## Wednesday, April 29, 2009

### To My Confused Friend

A friend of mine asked me what I think about his current situation. His girlfriend dumped him for another guy and he's trying to move on with his life. He's currently trying to woo someone when all of a sudden his ex-girlfriend called him up and asked him if they could mend their previous relationship . He's confused. I dunno what's the real deal between him and his current 'almost friend' and his ex-girlfriend. I'm not even sure why he asked me such question. Maybe an affirmative action for a lame excuse to dump someone or simply the truth.

I am an expert wannabe so I said, "As a friend I’d ask you, do you still love her? Kse if you do, what are the chances are you willing to take? Have you forgiven her and willing ka bang tanggapin siya ulit? K’se if you did forgive her, you should be sure to yourself that you won’t be throwing what she did to you on her face. New life." Naks!

Well, he's confused. What can I say? He's confused. Period. I can't blame him.

With his current situation, it made me rethink with what I had with my old boyfie whom I had the longest relationship I ever had. An on/off relationship, he was my first boyfriend, he became my last, he WAS the love of my life and he was my childhood sweetheart. A big part of my past maybe that's why I had a hard time to let him go THEN. Let's see...

He was my first boyfriend when we were in HS for about a year but we have to break it off simply because we're too young.

Went to college, I met other good looking and wonderful guys whom I had relationships with.

Then we meet again. He's financially stable and managing their family-owned business/company while I was busy earning my second degree. We became an item again.

He's a guy you want to spend your time with. He's good looking, full of surprises, mysterious, intellectually stimulating, exciting and full of fun. So what is it that made me end it with him? We grew up separately within our relationship. Couldn't find common ground for both of us anymore.

Since I became a Christian when I was in HS I have grown so much spiritually while he, on the other hand, is not a Christian and cannot comprehend what it really is to become one.

So that's it. The end of story. He's happy now and I am happy where I am.

As for my confused friend, I hope you consider the following common bad dating beliefs before you decide to date again:

* You choose potential partners who are incapable of meeting your emotional needs.
* You think love has to be difficult, painful, and/or hard.
* You think your potential partner is going to fix whatever you don't like about yourself or your life.
* You believe time is running out on your search for love and/or your chance to have children.

Godspeed to you amigo!

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## Wednesday, April 15, 2009

### How to Find Men/Women Within Your Perimeter

If you are still single and looking for a potential mate within your perimeter let's say 40 mile radius, I guess you can use the Drake equation.

The Drake equation (also sometimes called the "Green Bank equation", the "Green Bank Formula," or often erroneously labeled the "Sagan equation") is a famous result in the fields of exobiology and the search for extraterrestrial intelligence (SETI).

This equation was devised by Dr. Frank Drake (now Professor Emeritus of Astronomy and Astrophysics at the University of California, Santa Cruz) in 1960, in an attempt to estimate the number of extraterrestrial civilizations in our galaxy with which we might come in contact. The main purpose of the equation is to allow scientists to quantify the uncertainty of the factors which determine the number of such extraterrestrial civilizations.

The Drake equation states that:
$N = R^{\ast} \times f_p \times n_e \times f_{\ell} \times f_i \times f_c \times L \!$
where:
N is the number of civilizations in our galaxy with which communication might be possible;
and
R* is the average rate of star formation in our galaxy
fp is the fraction of those stars that have planets
ne is the average number of planets that can potentially support life per star that has planets
f is the fraction of the above that actually go on to develop life at some point
fi is the fraction of the above that actually go on to develop intelligent life
fc is the fraction of civilizations that develop a technology that releases detectable signs of their existence into space
L is the length of time such civilizations release detectable signals into space.

I guess I'm not making myself clear enough...we have to modify the equation by using the number of single men/women (i.e. the number of men/women you find attractive) which is the...

Wolowitz Coefficient = neediness x dress size squared.

Boy, do I love to watch Big Bang Theory or what? Wahaha!

### Smile, Smile and Smile!

If you want to know whether your marriage will survive, look at your spouse's yearbook photos.

Psychologists have found that how much people smile in old photographs can predict their later success in marriage.

"Maybe smiling represents a positive disposition towards life," said study leader Matthew Hertenstein, a psychologist at DePauw University in Indiana. "Or maybe smiling people attract other happier people, and the combination may lead to a greater likelihood of a long-lasting marriage. We don't really know for sure what's causing it."

Well, smile is the cheapest way to improve one's face so I guess, you'll pretty much attract more people that constitutes larger scale of social network which can lighten some burden within marriage.  So I guess, it's all about smile, eh?  Now I know, why my friend is still single.  Nyahaha!

Source: Smiles Predict Marriage Success

## Thursday, April 2, 2009

### Global Stage

My boyfriend is taking the global stage and of course, he had inspiring words that brings beyond optimism with other countries.

"The United States and the United Kingdom have stood together through thick and thin, through war and peace, through hard times and prosperity, and we've always emerged stronger by standing together," Obama said next to a beaming Brown.

Optimism is such a good thing that brings a fresh relationship with Russia.

"We believe that the time has come to reset our relations, as it was said, and to open a new page," Medvedev declared at Obama's side.

Which can be a big help in establishing cooperation from Iran, North Korea and Afghanistan.

Hayz...my bf is really busy right now, you know. Gotta go and gonna make some tea for my love. Wink! Wink!

Source: Y! News

More at MP3-Codes.com

Nice voice for a 20-yr-old-girl, right? Well, she won two Grammy Awards. You can check out her video here and I recommend this one. Have fun!

## Thursday, March 19, 2009

### Finishing Last

Things that are easily acquired, obtained, or maintained, without any effort or sacrifice, lack value... it's human nature.

Maybe...

Source

## Wednesday, March 11, 2009

### Circular Star Tracks

A 45-minute time exposure made for circular star tracks is seen over this run-down barn along County Road A near Iron River, Wis., Sunday night, Feb. 15, 2009. During the time exposure, the barn was lit with a battery powered spotlight using a technique called light painting.

Amazing isn't it?
To have more information regarding time exposures, you can check out these sites:
KenRockwell.com, dpreview.com and a good one, Y answers! hehehe...

### Errata

The Eraserheads went onstage for their reunion concert on August 30, 2008 at the Fort Open Field, Taguig City, which was cut short unexpectedly. The continuation of the concert was held at the SM Mall of Asia Concert Grounds on March 7, 2009. However, according to the band, the new concert will not be a continuation, but rather "a whole new gig" because they will do "totally new things" compared to the previous concert. (Source : Wikipedia)

## Monday, March 9, 2009

I love them. Filipinos love them. Especially if you come to know them while you're growing up. You'll agree with me. Their songs are easy to sing songs. Songs that inspired so many artists/bands nowadays; has meaningful lyrics, sometimes funny or sometimes tells you something about their or our ordinary lives. But the most wonderful thing about it is that you remember your childhood. You reminisce as you hear their songs playing on the radio. You brag to your friends that you have their new album, that you have chuckies, that you can play their songs in simple chords, that you actually fought for them when people said that they are influenced by demons (have you heard their tapes played backwards? Well, I did. some people say they have backwards-masked Satanic messages in their songs). Yeah, those things definitely gives you happy thoughts. But to be in a live concert?!? Goosebumps. Adrenaline rush (some people I know couldn't get out of their beds simply because they're still tired. No wonder).

Last Saturday, it was my all-time-favorite band's concert, Eraserheads at Mall of Asia। Yeah, it's the final set of their supposedly first reunion concert held last August but due to Ely's heart problems they hadn't finished it until their final set. Well, I wasn't there to witness myself their concerts. The heck, there's Youtube. People are so eager to take videos of them from their cellphones because they know they are partaking in the history of music. Hell, the history of Eraserheads! I wondered and agreed with Jessica Zafra why their concert is preceded by death akin to Mr. Rapper, Francis Magalona's death. They paid tribute to him by singing Kaleidoscope's chorus, chanting his name before singing Superproxy and included again (loving it!) the new upbeat rendition of Alapaap by Raymund Marasigan. But of course, there's Ang Huling El Bimbo....hayz...I can't wait for the DVD to come out. I am definitely gonna buy it! I love Eraserheads! Weeeeeh!

By the way, I have stumbled upon this other version of Ang Huling El Bimbo. Enjoy!

## Saturday, March 7, 2009

### Hanuba!

a.  don't force me to give reasons..i have none..don't give me that silly look, dabbing me with scrutiny, you don't run my life and I don't either...so better yet, let's mind our own lives..and, one thing more... never ask why..

b.
1.  I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in.  I am lost... I am hopeless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.
2.  I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I'm in the same place. But it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.
3.  I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there.  I still fall in.... it's a habit. My eyes are open, I know where I am. It IS my fault. I get out immediately.
4. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
5. I walk down another street.

c.  fancy gifts won't do...flowers and chocolates are over used..words--empty..argh! Jst call me..that'll do..ü

## Wednesday, March 4, 2009

### Great Things Start from Small Beginnings

I was trying to make a boat and an airplane out of paper. I can't remember. Well...

Grateful for the net! Hahaha!

How to Make a Paper Boat

How to Make Paper Airplanes

Images from Charlie 2.0 and 10paperairplanes

## Saturday, February 28, 2009

### Trust-O-Meter

Start by thinking of someone important to you, and rate your trust in that person on a scale of 1 to 5 (1 = lowest possible trust, 5 = highest). Then, evaluate the person by recalling your observations of his or her behavior.

Here are a few obvious questions I've found very helpful in quantifying the trustworthiness of people in my own life. The first three are the "yes" questions; if Person X is completely trustworthy, you'll answer yes to all three. The second three are the "no" questions—if Person X deserves your trust, the answer to all three will be negative.

The "yes" questions:

1. Does Person X usually show up on time?

2. When Person X says something is going to happen, does it usually happen?

3. When you hear Person X describing an event and then get more information about that event, does the new information usually match Person X's description?

The "no" questions:

4. Have you ever witnessed Person X lying to someone or assuming you'll help deceive a third person?

5. Does Person X sometimes withhold information in order to make things go more smoothly or to avoid conflict?

6. Have you ever witnessed Person X doing something (lying, cheating, being unkind) that he or she would condemn if another person did it?

Wow! Makes me glad that I've got great friendS who are trustworthy enough and definitely deserves my trust!
You can check out Oprah's site. Have fun!

## Wednesday, February 25, 2009

### She is past it...

I think a friend of mine needs to reassess...

Look, i am ugly॥ yet one can have a feeling here that blinds a man while he loves you॥ he thinks you're beautiful and one day, for no reason at all, he sees you ugly as you really are... and he is not blind anymore...and you see yourself as ugly as he sees you and you lose your man and your feeling..then one day। the feeling, that idiotic feeling that you are beautiful grows inside you again...and another man sees you and thinks you are beautiful and it's all to do over again॥ now i'm past it but it still might come again..

By the way, she is not ugly. She just thinks she is. Sigh...I hope she can find in herself she is beautiful inside out.

### Mixed Feelings...

I don't know what it is but I can relate to a friend.

It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief.
Life hangs upon me, and becomes a burden;
I am ten times undone, while hope, and fear, and grief, and rage and love rise up at once, and with variety of pain distract me...

## Monday, February 23, 2009

### Boomerang Children

What it means? Boomerang children refers to the growing number of young adults who have moved back into their parents’ home after time out of the house, say at a four-year stint at college.

With the latest crop of college grads having gone through the pomp and circumstance of commencement, a new flood of able-bodied college grads has entered the workforce. Or not. With the “r word”—recession—on every economist’s lips and the U.S. unemployment rate ticking upward, job prospects are less than stellar for the class of 2008. So rather than light out for the big city in pursuit of entry-level positions, affordable digs, and the sort of twenty-something scraping-by that previous generations accepted as a matter of course, many in the millennial generation are bringing it all back home. Boomeranging has its supporters and its critics. The pro camp views it as a way for parents and children to forge healthy adult relationships. Those against call the trend perilous pampering that curbs motivation and paves the way for generational conflict.

Does it mean that every adult Filipino is (or was but mostly is still is) Boomerang child.  Heck, we hardly notice the recession. Even before they invented the word we already  know what it is. We are genuises.

Source:Buzzword